Our family's new journey

A friend of mine has a 3-year old daughter who is battling leukemia.  She posted on August 30 about prayers that have been prayed for so long they fall off your prayer list because you assume "it's not in God's will or something".  That was the day that one of my prayers that I had been praying for 17 years and had fallen off the prayer list was starting to be answered.  We were asked to adopt the baby of someone we know.

I had just recently decided in my head that I was getting too old to still wish for a child.  I know that it was not in God's plan for Eric and I to have children when it was necessary for us to raise our nieces.  They needed to be our only focus.  Then I had decided (made a vow) that we were not going to pursue adoption unless it fell into our laps.  Then it did.

We took time to pray, fast, and seek Godly wisdom, while in my heart I was jumping up and down and saying "YES!".  We decided at the end of September to pursue the adoption.  Then we found out how much it was going to cost.  So, while fully trusting God for the finances, we went ahead and found a lawyer and set up the home study.

We are currently not fully funded for the adoption.  I freak out regularly about this and cry out to God. Boy is this a trust journey!  We are also feeling the pressure to get the home study done.  Our son is due November 27, but they are talking about delivering him early, the 13th or the 22nd.

I have struggled with allowing myself to be really excited.  The birth mom has already expressed doubts in her ability to go through with the adoption, even though she has been certain of this path since she found out she was pregnant.  Eric and I are moving ahead on faith that she continues to seek God for what is best for her baby.  If the adoption does not goes through, we will mourn the death of our dream for this baby and seek God's peace for His plan.

We ask that if you feel led, pray for us.  God already has the money, we just don't know where it is.  Also pray for the birth mom.  She is in a lot of pain with other medical issues.  Pray that Eric and I will not be discouraged in the wait and will rest in Him.